The campaign by Occupy London who organised a huge demonstration in the City today is pretty much along the same lines as mine.  If there was fairness in society then it would not be necessary to stage such protests but I have to say that I was impressed by the way this was organised and by the friendliness and helpfullness of people attending towards my similar cause.   The similarities lie in money and greed and a Government out of touch with what society needs.  There is much unemployment and much poverty and a Government who does not care and thinks nothing of spending a fortune on wars.   If this Government only took an interest in the apalling state of mental health care that would be wonderful but instead they choose not to respond to my letters time and time again and do NOTHING.  Anyway I am very grateful to those who signed my petition whilst I attended the protest organised by Occupy London.  I am told I need at least 500 signatures .  Anyway I have a long way to go before I get that many but it is a start – I had to cut short my visit there as I had to be at the hospital.  However I am posting my petition on this site so anyone please feel free to add your names to this.  I intend to gain more signatures on a week by week basis and working in Central London is very handy for this purpose. 

 I brought along to show people more of the interesting information I have obtained including DVDs and books.  There is one very interesting one called “The Marketing of Madness – there is no money in normal”  How true.   Dr Tracy has also supplied me with a lot of interesting cds.  I only wish that I had known about how harmful these drugs were in the first instance. 

 I met some interesting people at the demonstration and one lady mentioned about a sanctury for animals – I told her how the hospital was – not fit for animals where my daughter is currently.  I do not like the huge high fences and prison like atmosphere.  It is truly shocking.

However, I also met a journalist who seemed quite interested and I would be willing to give publicity in the hope that things get improved.  It is not just for my daughter but for many others who have noone to speak up for them.   

I had to cut short my visit unfortunately as I had to go to visit  my daughter and to allow enough time as many train lines were affected by engineering works today and my car has now been written off by the looks of things and I had to get another one but spotted a nice car near to where my daughter is in hospital.

Tomorrow the younger daughter who one was so desperately ill and now on top of the world thanks to me getting her off anti-psychotics is flying out to Venice to work for 6 months on a luxury cruise liner.

The rest of the family gained the support of my daughter to see the medical files as we just do not know what is going on and noone is prepared to discuss anything with you unless you have signed consent which I have obtained.

Tomorrow I will go again to the hospital to visit as Elizabeth wants to go to the cinema.

Just received the bad news my car cannot be fixed and is a write off thanks to an incompetent garage.  This is a problem to me right now as getting to see Elizabeth is a long and awkward journey and travelling takes most of the time.

Did not visit on Saturday but on Sunday the weather was cold and raining – not like summertime.

I did not arrive that early but we made the most of the time together and went to a very nice gym – a  branch of one I used to belong to in the local area to where I live.  We were not allowed to use the facilities but the allowed us in to speak to the membership team as I thought such a membership would be very god for Elizabeth – that is of course when she is allowed out again.   Time passed quickly and on the way back I spotted a very nice car for sale however do not know what to do for sure about this as although it is reasonably price considering the condition it is costly to run.  Said I would let them know this week but may go without a car for a while and save more towards it.

It was late by the time I got home and I was exhausted.

Bank Holiday Monday – again visited but got there a bit earlier this time.  We went into a lovely town where there was an abundance of beautiful shops.  On the way back Elizabeth was showing signs of distress and she was feeling unwell with flu light symptoms earlier on as well.  This made me furious as none of this would have happened had she not been put on all these terrible drugs – all of which are FDA approved yet extremely dangerous.  Despite me writing to the FDA several times about Seroquel they still carry on allowing it to be marketed.  Olanzapine is another and Clozapine.   They are allowed on the market to profit the drugs companies/pharmaceutical industry whilst Governments like the British Government turn a blind eye. 

On leaving the hospital which is like “prison” I spoke briefly to another patient who is allowed out alone and said simply “are you happy here” to which he replied “no.”   That says it all.

When I got back I was up late writing all these letters –  The Government clearly cannot care less however Prince Charles has recently given a good speach about health professionals having more empathy towards patients.  I commend him on this and I decided to write to him and other Royal Family members.   With a title “Royal” in front of the hospital I do not think my daughter’s care lives up to this title as she has come there to have a drug-free assessment and now they are not doing things properly and I can never accept their conclusion.  I just want her moved away from this awful dumping ground of NHS care.

Worst was still to come……………………

This week we have lost our beloved kitten thanks to someone staying with us just letting him out and we have not yet got a cat door put in.  I slept downstairs on the settee in the hope he would reappear but to no avail.  I am absolutely devasted about this.  The car does not matter but Fluffy does and I had just spent money on having pictures done of him at a photographers.  I am gutted and so are the rest of the family. 

Friday I attended a meeting which was a waste of time as the main issue is medication and I got nowhere.  The psychiatrist sat there smiling smugly when I complained at the harmful drug Olanzapine that he had switched Elizabeth to – the pharmacist was also smiling until I commented.  The meeting was a complete disaster and came to an abrupt halt by with the threat of me being escorted off the premises by security.  That was of course following my comments to appoint solicitors of course.

Dr Ann Blake Tracy commented in an email words to the effect of it being a sick game that he is playing, knowing full well that switching drugs is bound to cause someone’s behaviour to go off the rails, leading to sanctions and more control by him. 

My one hope is the solicitors currently involved.   What abuse that is going on in the UK! – a so called expert who cannot prove the cause and what the mental illness is as there are no scientific tests to do this – this expert in turn ignores a patient’s cries for help who has been complaining so many times of severe side effects.  He then goes on to prescribe yet another useless drug and one of the worst that she has been on before.  Professor David Healy has cited this drug as one of the worst in cases of suicide and it is also bad for weight gain.  There are Professors attached to this hospital who do not deserve the title “Royal” in my opinion yet with all this expertise they cannot withdraw my daughter safely from Seroquel and do things completely wrong so that it is bound to fail.   There is no way I can accept their diagnoses as the leading professor did promise a drug-free period. 

Dr Tracy says it is like switching from Coke to Pepsi and any change and mixing of drugs can cause adverse behaviour. 

The title speaks for itself and is very true.  This is where they send people to as a very last resort.  It is a place where they switch medications and further their experimentations and against a patient’s wishes (as in the case of Elizabeth) – that is despite signing a declaration to say “no further experimentation”.

At Cambion 4 Star Wards set up by a former acute patient – this sounds ideal and is on offer under my NHS trust although they have refused to provide it.  Now I just want her out of this hospital where the main emphasis is on drugs.

The Royal Bethlem Hospital is set in beautiful grounds in a very nice area.  It has good facilities such as community hall, swimming pool, art and crafts centre.  You do not see this under the local hospital care.  However, since Elizabeth’s admission for a “drug free” period as promised by the leading Professor attached to this hospital, the first thing that was offered to her was the dreadful drug Clozapine which she has refused on several occasions.   Following this the Consultant Psychiatrist went ahead against my wishes and reduced her by 150mg off the Seroquel – then he  mixed this with Olanzapine which has the highest rate of suicide and linked to law suits in the States and Professor David Healy identified this high risk in suicide in his research. 

I am apalled at what they are doing at this so called specialist hospital and have had to complain about the care.   When someone clearly wishes to come off prescribed drugs and has multiple diagnoses, when the drugs clearly do not work and noone can give scientific proof as to a diagnosis then what right do these doctors have to prescribe harmful drugs leading to long term health problems and against a patient’s wishes when that patient has signed a declaration stating no more scientific experimentation.

The Maudsley Royal Bethlem Hospital does not live up to its name.  “Its all about Clozapine here” said the lead nurse.   The ~Consultant Psychiatrist sat there at the meeting today smugly smiling along with the psychologist until I commented and that took the smile off her face instantly.   It was a waste of a precious day holiday from work and I got very upset at the meeting and had with me a close family friend.  The Consultant Psychiatrist threatened to have me arrested by security staff and I was led downstairs by other members of staff.  The social worker is nice but certainly a doctor who smiles and a psychologist likewise are not professional in their approach and especially in the way they choose not to listen to a patient’s wishes and to ignore the declarations I have sent them as regards the safety of what they are doing.  None have been returned signed and this says it all. 

I am extremely upset with this hospital that they are not doing what the Professor said and therefore cannot possibly give an accurate assessment.   Nothing was done properly as to take someone off such a steep amount of any drug leads to imbalance of behaviour and then the patient is punished by being put on a section and then being allowed out for only 3 hrs.  This meant that my visits were restricted and I had to get cabs back to the hospital as I was threatened I would be arrested if she was late.

THIS IS CARE?   THIS IS NOT CARE IN A SO CALLED CIVILISED COUNTRY AT ALL.   IT IS DIGUSTING ABUSE AND SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED.  THE HOSPITAL DOES NOT DESERVE THE TITLE OF “ROYAL”.  IT IS WRONG TO TREAT VULNERABLE PATIENTS IN THIS WAY AND MANY HAVE NO RELATIVES AND MANY HAVE NO VISITORS TO BACK THEM BUT I BELIEVE IN FIGHTING AND IF SOMETHING IS WRONG YOU SHOULD SPEAK OUT ABOUT IT AND I BELIEVE IT IS AGAINST GOD THAT SUCH VULNERABLE AND WEAKENED PATIENTS ARE UNDER THE CONTROL OF PSYCHIATRISTS WHO CANNOT EVEN PROVE SCIENTIFICALLY WHAT CAUSES A MENTAL ILLNESS.

DR TRACY GIVES BRILLIANT ADVICE ON HER WEBSITE www.drugawareness.org and the new private psychiatrist that I appointed is an Orthomolecular Psychiatrist and this should be offered as a choice for patients under the NHS whose care is all about drugs when a patient complains about serious side effects the NHS ignore the complaints.

Now I am having to get solicitors involved – this is CARE UNDER THE NHS EVEN AT A TOP LEADING HOSPITAL – IT IS ALL THE SAME HOWEVER WHY IS THE OTHER THINGS ON OFFER AT MAUDSLEY NOT GIVEN TO LOCAL ACUTE WARDS.

THE BEST SOLUTION IS CAMBION FOUR STAR WARDS THAT OFFER EVERYTHING THAT THE MAUDSLEY HAVE TO OFFER BUT MORE.  ON THESE WARDS PATIENTS ARE TREATED WITH RESPECT AND NOT LIKE PRISONERS.

AT EARTH HOUSE IN AMERICA PATIENTS ARE TREATED AGAIN WITH RESPECT AND CONSIDERATION AND ARE CALLED STUDENTS RATHER THAN PATIENTS.   THIS IS THE KIND OF CARE I WANT TO SEE IN THIS COUNTRY NOT JUST DRUG PUSHING AS THE DRUGS SIMPLY DO NOT WORK AND A STUDY BY DR MALCOLM BOWERS OF YALE UNIVERSITY CITES HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE GOING PSYCHOTIC ON THESE DRUGS AND THAT SAYS IT ALL. 

I BELIEVE IT IS THE DRUGS THEMSELVES THAT ARE CAUSING THE PROBLEMS WITH ELIZABETH AND COMING OFF THEM YOU NEED HELP AND THERE IS NO HELP – NOONE WANTS TO KNOW ONCE YOU ARE LABELLED WITH A CONDITION TO WHICH THERE IS NO SCIENTIFIC EVIDENCE WHATSOEVER.  

DOCTORS HAVE FAR TOO POWER AND REVEL IN IT – THEY ARE ABUSING VULNERABLE PATIENTS AND SO ARE THE TEAMS INVOLVED AS THEIR JOBS AND SALARIES DEPEND ON IT.

MAY GOD GIVE JUSTICE ONE DAY TO THE PEOPLE SUFFERING LIKE MY DAUGHTER UNDER THE CONTROL OF PSYCHIATRY.

Saturday – went to visit Elizabeth and arrived just after midday.   Car still off the road as there is something major wrong with it and so had to rely on public transport and it is a long way away.  I make the effort to go as I know that Elizabeth is not getting out much and is couped up on that ward with the other patients who are also severely ill.  Elizabeth is very unhappy and is being punished by not being allowed out right now for very long.   The doctor just took her off a large amount of medication and instead of allowing a drug free period like the Professor suggested in his letter,  the doctor in charge has introduced another harmful drug.  This drug is called Olanzapine.   It has the worst record of suicide and homicide ever recorded so I read in an anti-psychotic they are offering at this leading specialist hospital where my daughter was promised a drug free assessment.   Taking someone off a large amount like this is bound to throw a patient’s behaviour off balance as well as being couped up on the ward for the most part.  This is not what I expected at all from such a leading hospital where I thought there would be more on offer for care and a promise of a proper assessment by the Professor whom I thought she would be under but now this Professor is supposedly now not in charge of the ward where she is any longer nevertheless I feel he owes some kind of responsibility towards my daughter having referred her there in the first place and even said he had “one or two contacts”.

Dr Tracy has written to me and questions what on earth this doctor is doing switching her instead of just getting her off the drugs.  She also goes on to state that Olanzapine is notorious for causing diabetes and I am therefore appointing solicitors to act for my daughter.    She goes on to say that “they know if they begin switching meds she will become out of control thus giving them more control via sanctions.  “IT IS A VERY SICK GAME THEY PLAY.”   

MAY GOD PUNISH THEM FOR DOING THIS TO MY DAUGHTER.  THIS IS TRULY EVIL AS IT IS HER WISH TO BE REDUCE AND IT CAN BE DONE BUT THEY ARE DELIBERATELY DOING THIS.   

GOD IS WATCHING THIS ABUSE.

Dr Tracey has recommended I read the following  – an article from Atlantic Magazine called “Lies Damned Lies & Medical Science”.  It is an interview with a top expert in the world saying that at this point 90% of medical research has been compromised due to undue influence by the  manufacturers and that he is not sure if medical science will recover from all this deception in research.  She also recommends I look at the study done by Dr Malcolm Bowers of Yale on how many are going psychotic on these drugs which remains unrecognised and then they continue to treat them for this drug-induced psychosis.  It is truly evil what is going on.

There was not much time to do anything on Saturday and I took Elizabeth off the ward and we went for a meal.  I was told if I was not back in 3 hours I could be arrested.

On Sunday I went down with a friend to see her again as otherwise there would be no visitors for her.  She was looking bloated now she is on that awful drug and saying how very unhappy she is on that ward that is like a prison.  She begged me to get her off and said “I want to come home, Mum”.  It is heartbreaking as I would like to have her home however since she has been on these drugs her behaviour can be totally out of control –  the drugs are so very very harmful – a once placid girl can be the complete opposite and unpredictable.  A once happy girl is now sad and her appearance unrecognisable from how she used to be.

They are poisoning my daughter and will eventually kill her so I am going to turn to the worlds religions to draw attention to the plight of the weak and vulnerable people stuck on these prison-like wards with hardly any visitors miles from home and put on drug after drug after drug by doctors who have nothing in the way of scientific tests to properly ascertain the cause of mental illness and the violent and aggressive behaviour shown by some of these patients is caused by the drugs themselves not by the condition and besides WHICH ONE in my daughter’s case.  There is a multitude of conditions.

I attach my appeal to the churches and you can see from this is because I believe that only God can help my daughter now and at the end of the day God is more powerful than any of these so called professionals who I believe are abusing my daughter and ignoring her wish to come off the drugs.  By introducing another drug they are risking her life and she could die.  I pray to God this does not happen and hope that the solicitor coming tomorrow can help my daughter. 

It is great that a well known person like Russell Brand speaks out on  mental health issues as many do not want to address these problems.  The article in the Evening Standard is brilliant and I totally agree with what he is saying.  It is brave to be able to speak out about your own problems and I am pleased he is making a BBC documentary.  However I wrote to him tonight to tell him who are the real abusers of drugs and they are the NHS Psychiatrists.

Sadly Elizabeth has been put on a section today and I am now having to look for solicitors.  I am worried now she is under their control they could dish out the Clozapine for which they specialise as the main care is drugs and more drugs.

The proposal to reduce her off the medication now may be put back and they were going to do it by a huge drop which would not have worked unlike Dr Tracy’s advice.

I told Russell Brand about Dr Tracy and what wonderful advice she has given me as regards withdrawal from anti-psychotic drugs.

Most of the time my daughter is on the ward but she could go out however she did not feel like talking to the nurse and I do not know yet the full picture of what happened to get  her on a Section 5.2.

The last straw for me would be for them to put her on Clozapine as this would be against her wishes and I am backing her.

The whole environment at the specialist hospital is not peaceful or good.

 I told Russell Brand what is needed is an Alternative Care Centre over here like Earthhouse.org.  I even said I would be happy also to appear on such a programme as I really would like to see some changes for these poor patients and that they are given choice in care.

The Pharmacist is proposing to do this on Monday and the Psychiatrist tried to give high praise for this so called expert.   I am on the verge of naming the hospital and will do so if they go ahead and give them the publicity they so deserve.  They have the expertise to do this and she is in the right place as any withdrawal from drugs can cause adverse reactions.  However 150mg is ridiculous you have got to be joking.  There is no way on earth I am going to sit back and see my daughter go downhill and be so ill as a result of this Pharmacist’s incompetence.   I have sought the advice and experience of Dr Ann Blake Tracy – Head of the International Drug Awareness Coalition who says miniscule amounts should be taken off medication on a daily basis – not in one huge go like this specialist hospital.   I am not going to sit back and do nothing about this abuse.   I have seen the affects of her withdrawing once before off 50mg of Seroquel and this threw her completely off balance.  This Pharmacist is going to get a huge complaint and so is the doctor if they do not listen because Dr Tracy knows what she is talking about and I have seen two attempts to withdraw my daughter and they have not been done properly and I have seen at first hand the terrible consequences.  

Anyway I have written another declaration as noone in the team bothered to return my calls, you could not get through to anyone and I kept having to telephone the switchboard.  Noone phoned back and I have not received back the declarations to say they are happy with the safety of what they are doing.   I KNOW THIS REDUCTION WILL NOT WORK ON THE BASIS OF WHAT THEY ARE DOING AND THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE EXPERTS – THERE IS NO WAY I AM GOING TO LET THEM GET AWAY WITH THIS AND HAVE MY DAUGHTER DISAPPOINTED SO FOR STARTERS I WILL CONTACT EVERY BRITISH NEWSPAPER AND THEN TURN MY ATTENTION TO THE INTERNATIONAL NEWSPAPERS AND MEDIA ALL OVER THE WORLD.

This drug pushing environment of the specialist hospital under the NHS is a disgrace – it is wrong to ply a patient with drugs that have the same effects as LSD against their wishes.   Dr Tracy has highlighted her research the dangers of these drugs both anti-depressants and anti-psychotics.  It is cruel and abusive to put a patient through a rapid withdrawal leading to serious consequences as it can cause a patient to commit suicide and can cause severe violent behaviour and aggression.

THE PHARMACIST AND PSYCHIATRIST AT THE SPECIALIST HOSPITAL HAVE IGNORED WHAT I TOLD THEM AND GAVE THEM IN SEVERAL LETTERS ABOUT WITHDRAWAL AND I WILL THEREFORE HOLD THEM RESPONSIBLE AND WILL GO OUT OF MY WAY TO COMPLAIN IN ORDER TO GET JUSTICE IF THEY JUST GO AHEAD AND DO WHAT THEY PROPOSE.  MY DAUGHTER WILL SUFFER TERRIBLE PAIN AND WILL GO THROUGH HELL WITH THEIR STUPID AND CRUEL IDEAS OF A QUICK WITHDRAWAL AND I AM PREPARED TO NAME THE HOSPITAL AND WARD CONCERNED AS THEY ARE A DISGRACE IF THEY DO THIS TO MY DAUGHTER.    

Withdrawal from Seroquel 750mg was supposed to take place this week but nothing so far has been done.   The Consultant Psychiatrist seems to be “hiding”.  He has not returned my calls.   I have therefore written to everyone in Parliament, David Cameron, Nick Clegg, Andrew Lansley, Boris Johnson and my local MP.   I want this abuse stopped.   Dr Tracy says you should not be withdrawn too quickly and 2 weeks is ridiculous.  I have given the team a declaration and another one stating they will not put her on Clozapine.   I am so disgusted I feel like writing to every leading newspaper  for every country throughout the world.  Dr Tracy has the most wonderful website and I am not being paid to promote this or her book but I truly believe in what she is saying as I have seen exactly what she has described in my daughter’s behaviour/condition as a result of being on drug after drug.

Drugs mean huge money for the Pharmaceutical Industry and now I am challenging the Government in my campaign.  I have hardly begun but the last straw will be if they put her on Clozapine against her wishes I have threatened court action.

On Sunday we spent a nice day in a large town where there are trams and a beautiful shopping centre.   I feel sorry for Elizabeth as I think she is couped up on the ward most of the time.  

Dr Tracy has sent me some books and material as the team have asked for advice?  This is a leading hospital and they should know how best to get my daughter off the drugs in accordance with her wishes.   It is ridiculous how they are going about things.   If I have to take them to court then I will ask for all the scientific evidence – there are no scientific tests whatsoever to determine what causes a mental illness and the drugs do not solve the problem as my daughter still has not got over things that have happened to her.

Dr Tracy has referred a few interesting things to me such as:

an article from Atlantic Magazine titled “Lies, Damned Lies & medical science”  This is an interview with a top expert in the world saying that at this point 90% of medical research has been compromised due to undue influence by the manufacturers.  He further goes on to say he is not sure if medical science will recover from all this deception in research. She also refers me to a study by Dr Malcolm Bowers of Yale about how many people are going psychotic on these drugs which remains unrecognised and then they continue to treat them for drug induced psychosis.  HOW VERY VERY TRUE.  I CAN CERTAINLY RELATE TO THIS HAVING SEEN THIS WITH MY OWN EYES.

Anyway all too soon the day flew past and it was time to go back to the ward.  I do not go on the ward any more and prefer to wait in the corridor.  However I dropped in the Minutes I did of the meeting where I took along some very interesting dvds which the Consultant Psychiatrist was quick to dismiss including one person from my family who stars in a dvd called Schizophrenia.  This person is fine now and drug free.  What about my father who was given Seroquel and Rispiridon for Alzheimers.   He suffered a heart attack – at the time I did not relate this to the drugs but I am sure this was the cause and the cause of her aggression. 

These drugs are extremely harmful and I have met someone else who tells me that the person she cares for has been affected by Clozapine yet the FDA still allow drugs to continue to be on the market and I have complained to them many times regarding Seroquel and they do not care to listen.

Dr Tracy testifies to the FDA on drugs like this and the withdrawal from them and her advice should NOT be dismissed.

This is what was said today and I argued that it takes a year or more to come off a high dosage of highly toxic medication and has to be done very carefully but the psychiatrist was not listening.  Fortunately I am in touch with Dr Tracy of www.drugawareness.org who has given me superb advice along with her FDA testimonies which I produced at the meeting today to show the team.   This will not be done sucessfully and they need to think again as my daughter has suffered quite enough.  It was also mentioned that the local team could withdraw funding at any time.    I am going to deal with this issue in such a way that they will not wish to do this.

After meeting we went into the local town, had lunch out,  got Elizabeth’s hair done nicely and then went to the cimena afterwards.  I made a point of photocopying the invaluable advice Dr Tracy has given me on drug withdrawal to pass on to the team so they have no excuse for doing htings wrong.