Not surprised to see the First Claimant on court proceedings being none other than her social worker – the social worker I asked to be replaced when I got to hear she had tried to persuade my daughter to take Clozapine against her wishes.  Needless to say all the team did was appoint yet another social worker and refused to replace her so she had 2 social workers!  Anyway she is the only Claimant mentioned on the forms and wants me replaced as nearest relative with her father in relation to a Section 3 the team wished to impose against my daughter’s wishes.  All along she was willing to remain voluntarily and undergo “treatment” – more drugs! under the NHS care system.

You cannot walk out of that ward as it is like a prison camp so she would be going nowhere and this is quite cruel what the team have done and because they do not like me so I feel.

Backed up by a witness statement from an Approved Mental Health Professional of social services form  based at Maudsley I felt I would have no hope.  I tried to explain everything to this person who bombarded me with phone calls stating I would be replaced if I did not agree alongside others all harrassing and bullying me into saying yes.    With two doctors and two social workers up against me what chance did I  have when my daughter clearly said she would remain voluntarily and keep up her treatment – all I did as a mother was once again listen to her wishes unlike the team and it would have taken them time to find a more suitable placement in any case.

I have not got along with the social worker at local level since I  heard about her getting involved in persuading my daughter to take yet more drugs and also the fact she smiles throughout meetings which I find most unprofessional but she is not alone so does the Consultant Psychiatrist and Pharmacist at the Maudsley Royal Bethlem Hospital.

It would have suited them if I was out the way and not nearest relative and I have just written a letter to the doctor at the Maudsley stating that it is a breach of human rights that he is not allowing her to come out with me unescorted even to the church which is in the grounds.    I went to visit at the weekend and was going to take her to some street parties but was not allowed and there was NO escort to come out.  I have just complained to the CQC and PALS office who have not responded to my previous complaints properly.  If something has happened on the ward and the person you care about is covered in bruises are you not entitled to an explanation.  If you get to hear of someone unsuitable visiting who is violent – are you not entitled to be concerned?   THERE IS NOTHING BUT A WALL OF SILENCE.  All you get is one phone call a week which is just a chat but tells you nothing and this is wrong especially when you h ave the consent of the person you care for signed by form or letter and it is wrong that someone should be forced against their wishes to undergo medication and further experimentation under a treatment order that has been forced upon her and me in such a nasty manner.  This is supposed to be a democratic country and whilst I oppose the medication and she was on a huge dosage which they raised at one point to 800mg, things are being done against patients rights and noone could care less and it is no wonder these professionals think they are above the law and can get away with this abuse with patients drugged up to their neck on LSD- like drugs and the drugs themselves can cause the psychosis so I have been told by leading professionals.  I have also seen absolute proof that the drugs cause psychosis by watching the behaviour of Elizabeth.  I wish she had never taken the anti-depressants in the first place.  I am not just speaking from my point of view but have done tremendous research into matters and whilst I am just a mother xperts have told me this information – HONEST EXPERTS.  The majority of psychiatrists cannot be bothered to read up on research papers and look closely into findings as to the safety of the drugs.  The Maudsley do not go far enough to warn people of just how harmful these drugs are. The literature they give to patients does not make any mentioned of the research into these drugs and lawsuits. They affect that person’s physical health after being on them a long time and can kill that person.  Many people trust these professionals I did so myself once but it is only since I have looked into things thoroughly that I know the true and awful facts.

I believe my daughter has been misdiagnosed and the assessment has not been done in a proper decent manner as when you reduce someone too steeply or mix the drugs this can cause psychosis in itself.  IT IS COMPLETELY UNTRUE WHAT IS SAID IN THE COURT HEARING PAPERS THAT I AM PUTTING MY DAUGHTER UNDER CONSTANT PRESSURE TO STOP HER MEDICATION.  The email typed at her scheme was done with me not being around at all – the fact of the matter is that every time it was due to go back to her scheme whn medication was dished out she did not want to go – she said ” you try taking it Mum, it makes me feel terrible”  I listened to her as a mother when she complained of all the terrible effects of these drugs which to begin with were not so evident as they are now – now she has been on them for a long while.  I AM SO UPSET WITH THESE PROFESSIONALS WHO DO ARE PROTECTING THEIR JOBS RATHER THAN CARING FOR WHAT HAPPENS TO MY DAUGHTER WHO IS JUST ANOTHER NUMBER TO THEM AND PROVIDING THEM WITH INCOME.  THEY HAVE GONE OUT OF THEIR WAY TO TRY AND DESTROY THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MYSELF AND HER AND NOW THIS – I AM ONLY ALLOWED ESCORTED ACCESS TO MY DAUGHTER.  

The other thing this social worker wants to control by the sounds of it is the money side of things.  I have put in place Mind and her sister because I am concerned about her future and have set up a discretionary trust fund.  The treating team are treating me like some common criminal when I am looking out for my daughter’s long term financial interests and not taking from her.     If for instance I had been replaced as nearest relative her father does not visit that often because he lives a distance a way but I have mentioned to him and the rest of the family about getting together with the issues of money for her future and they  have not taken up that opportunity to get involved or have their name put down on the fund I have set up for her or anything like this.  I am not looking to take control of everything including finances as they have portrayed yet what has this social worker and social services team done to help my daughter manage with money because at the scheme there certainly was no controls or restrictions which led to her spending on certains things that were ridiculous and not necessary leaving h erself with no money for food.  What kind of care is that and then you get “she is an adult”  – yes she is an adult but there needs to be protection in place and this is where they have miserably failed as I compared this scheme to that run by one through Mind which was brilliant as Mind were working with people to carefully manage their own money.  This has been miserably failed by the local team.

The psychotic behaviour is soley as a result of the drugs which have caused her to have nightmares and suffer hallucinations during the day and she was never aggressive b efore taking anti-depressants/psychotics.  I began to suspect it could be the drugs from the onset but did not know what I know now.

I have made it clear that I wish for my daughter to go to a very very nice scheme away from this area that I have heard about where I believe she will be treated with huge respect and helped in a more peaceful area as I have heard glowing reports about this scheme but I do not know whether this team will listen.  Certainly the hospital social worker who is very very good seems to have taken account of everything and knows how to communicate.  I respect him for that but whether the rest of the team will even bother to listen to this man is another matter.

I will admit to have losing my cool at meetings especially one where the Consultant Psychiatrist refused to listen about a gradual withdrawal – you see it was promised by the leading professor that she would have a drug free period.  You cannot just withdraw someone in a decent and safe manner within 2 weeks by a reduction of 150mg and by doing this and mixing the drugs with another can cause psychosis and thi sis what happened.  Then when that person acts out against the team in any way they get sanctions and punishments imposed upon them and this is what has happened. IT IS WORSE THAN PRISON.  IN PRISON YOU  HAVE MORE RIGHTS.

THE LAST THING I WANT EVERYONE TO WITNESS BECAUSE I KNOW OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE DIED ON THIS DRUG …………………………..IT IS MENTIONED IN THE COURT HEARING PAPERS THAT CLOZAPINE WILL BE GIVEN IF HER SYMPTOMS DO NOT RESOLVE WELL ENOUGH.  THIS IS ABSOLUTE ABUSE AND IT IS AGAINST FDA GUIDELINES FOR THIS DRUG TO BE GIVEN TO A PATIENT WHO HAS A HISTORY OF HEART PROBLEMS IN THE FAMILY.   I WANT EVERYONE TO WITNESS THIS ON MY BLOG THAT IF THIS HAPPENS THIS PSYCHIATRIST, PHARMACIST AND A LEADING PROFESSOR INVOLVED IN PHARMACY ARE THE ONES WHO WILL HAVE KILLED MY DAUGHTER AS THEY HAVE ALL REFUSED AND IGNORED THE DECLARATION I GAVE THEM FOR SIGNATURE AS TO THE SAFETY OF THIS DRUG AND THIS WOULD POINT TO THE FACT THAT THEY DO NOT BELIEVE IT SAFE OR ARE TRYING TO COVER THEMSELVES OTHERWISE THEY WOULD NOT HESITATE TO SIGN IT.  CLOZAPINE IS WHAT THEY SPECIALIST IN AND WHAT THEY HAVE PESTERED MY DAUGHTER ABOUT FROM THE BEGINNING AND EACH TIME AND ALL ALONG AT LOCAL LEVEL SHE HAS FLATLY REFUSED THIS DRUG.   THEY WILL BE BREACHING HER HUMAN RIGHTS AND I WILL GET TO HEAR ABOUT IT EVENTUALLY EVEN IF I AM BANNED AS THE M OTHER FROM VISITING.

THE SOCIAL WORKER HAS WRONGLY ACCUSED ME OF CONTACTING MY DAUGHER BY MOBILE PHONE AND PUTTING HER UNDER CONSTNAT PRESSURE TO STOP HER MEDICATION.  THAT IS A COMPLETE AND UTTER LIE.    I BELIEVE THE SOCIAL WORKER WANTED ME OUT OF THE WAY AND IS TRYING TO STIR UP TROUBLE BY SAYING COMMENTS LIKE THIS WHEN THEY ARE NOT TRUE.   I HAVE NO END OF TEXT MESSAGES FROM MY DAUGHTER WHO LOOKED FORWARD TO MY VISITS BECAUSE IT WAS A CHANCE TO GET OFF THE WARD AND GET SOME MUCH NEEDED FRESH AIR.  THERE WAS NO RISK TO ANYONE’S SAFETY AND UNLIKE AT LOCAL LEVEL SHE WAS NOT ALONE BUT IN MY COMPANY – AT LOCAL LEVEL A SECTION 3 PATIENT CAN ROAM ABOUT FREELY UNESCORTED ACCORDING TO THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS BUT NOT AT THE MAUDSLEY – WHY IS THIS –  OK I CAN UNDERSTAND BEING UNESCORTED IS NOT GOOD BUT THEN IT IS AN ABSOLUTE BREACH OF HUMAN RIGHTS TO PREVENT MY DAUGHTER FROM ENJOYING THE STREET PARTY CELEBRATIONS NEARBY THAT I HAD BEEN INVITED TO BY A FORMER WORK COLLEAGUE.   NO MATTER WHAT THEY THINK OF ME THEY SHOULD CONSIDER MY DAUGHTER AND THE FACT SHE FINDS IT MOST STRESSFUL BEING COUPED UP ON A WARD LIKE A PRISON CAMP. 

If a family are upset or in dispute of a diagnosis or team – you try getting legal support.  It is impossible and the law is stacked heavily against you and the patient concerned and in favour of the doctors who are put on a pedestal and shown utmost respect when all along they are the ones responsible for dishing out powerful mind altering LSD like drugs that have the most serious long term health problems.   A patient  is just another number to them – it would be different if that patient was their child.  

Some professionals try and compare themselves to you as a mother – that is laughable.

Anyway getting back to the legal profession when you discover in the files something serious has happened it is near impossible to find solicitors to act for you.  For those who have sued the drugs manufacturers they usually get a pay-off to silence them.

For those who end up in court for murder, they get let off because they are on these powerful mind altering drugs make them into a dream-like state and they carry out their nightmares.  Sometimes you  hear of cases where a husband murders a wife and they have been devoted to one another for many years – then you may read that person has been left off because that person as a “sleep” condition.   Such conditions are caused by the anti-psychotic drugs and I have seen my daughter in a dream like state during the day and she has told me of the nightmares she has suffered.    This is why people get let off – it is big money to carry on prescribing the drugs rather than banning them.  Ghostwriters are employed and doctors sign off the drugs for safety purposes and then of course the FDA approve them.

Not a word from the FDA or British Pharmaceutical Industry to my letters – this says it all.

So many people are hoodwinked into believing these doctors who are happy to carry on prescribing away because they have a patient for life that way and it provides them with income.

ANYWAY IT WILL BE INTERESTING TO SEE IF THE CQC DO ANYTHING THIS TIME AS THEY DID SEEM RATHER INTERESTED BUT IT IS WRONG THAT THEY POST RATINGS.  I THOUGHT THIS PROCEDURE HAD FINISHED SO THEY SHOULD TAKE THE RATINGS DOWN.  FOR INSTANCE A HOME MAY BE RATED EXCELLENT WHEN IT IS FAR FROM EXCELLENT.  IT GIVES MISLEADING INFORMATION TO THE PUBLIC. 

The team have been keen to look for reasons why my daughter – in fact both of them suffered breakdowns.  The answer may be straight before them.  Noone knows for sure what causes a breakdown however I have seen in three cases in my family this has happened when someone has taken on too much for themselves and become worn down as a result and also, trauma.   Some experts automatically point the finger at home, family and environment.   Yes, sometimes that can be a huge factor but it is usually an event that triggers it.   The loss of someone close to that person,  a terrible incident of rape or abuse, for army personnel, flashbacks of terrible experiences, taking on too much of a challenge – overwork, pressure, expectations etc etc.  For instance some young people become ill at university when they are loaded with work, feel under so much pressure and away from home and family for support.  I personally know of such cases.   

Then comes the cure ……………………………….ANTI-DEPRESSANTS/ANTI-PSYCHOTICS dished out by psychiatrists/GPs.  Some may appear to work to begin with but then comes the terrible realisation that you are stuck and end up feeling worse. You cannot just come off them.  They tell you they are not addictive BUT THAT IS NOT TRUE.  Elizabeth has been told she must remain on them for the rest of her life yet I truly believe she was a victim of crime and did not get proper decent care under the local mental health authority whose Chief Executive has in the past called the care “excellent”  –  I wonder if I was to name the local area how many people would agree with this Chief Executive who was warned to respond to be in a nicer way by the Healthcare Commission.  THE FACTS ARE YOU CAN COME OFF THESE DRUGS BUT NOONE WANTS TO HELP UNDER THE NHS.  THERE IS HELP FOR THOSE ON ILLLICIT DRUGS BUT NOT PRESCRIBED DRUGS EVEN IF THERE ARE QUERIES AS TO THE DIAGNOSES BEING CORRECT OR NOT.   IT IS A VERY VERY CRUEL SYSTEM THAT NOONE WILL STAND UP AND SAY THEY DISPUTE A DIAGNOSIS AND THAT SOMEONE CAN BE MISDIAGNOSED BECAUSE THEY ARE AFRAID OF LEGAL ACTION.

I have been system of complaints so many times and NOTHING has been resolved.   I have only just received a letter from the Local Government Ombudsman in support of the team.   THIS IS RUBBISH – THE REPORT IS NOT WORTH THE PAPER IT IS WRITTEN ON .  How can services be improved if nothing is done.   They need to look at every detail in the file and obviously they do not bother to read the details to come to such a conclusion.   For the most part it is the dismissive attitude of these professionals that is the worst thing and how they stick together.    You get nowhere with a team like this and the team locally are responsible for providing ongoing care for my daughter.   The only way to get rid of such a team is to move and I am no longer happy in this area that is for sure. 

It is not just the mentally ill who are ignored and not listened to as well as their families and carers b ut also the elderly BUT THAT IS ANOTHER STORY.   IT IS A SHOCKING STORY AS WELL AND I WILL BE WRITING ABOUT THIS AT A LATER DATE.  THIS SORT OF THING GETS INTHE PAPERS BUT NOTHING IS EVER WRITTEN ABOUT THE MENTAL HEALTH EITHER BECAUSE THE NEWSPAPERS COULD BE INFLUENCED BY THE PHARMACEUTICAL COMPANIES OR ELSE ARE THEY TOO AFRAID??  THIS SHOULD BE  OF PUBLIC INTEREST.  IF SOMEONE KILLS AND ARE UNDER MENTAL HEALTH THEN QUESTIONS ARE IMMEDIATELY RAISED – THESE POOR PEOPLE THAT DO THINGS LIKE THIS ARE UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF PSYCHIATRIC DRUGS THAT MAKE THEM VIOLENT.

The weather could be better – it is raining today in the UK.  Elizabeth has been stuck on the stuffy ward for 2 days thanks to the Consultant Psychiatrist imposing his sanctions and punishment on accountof her behavioiur caused by his actions in reducing and mixing medications – then he dishes out punishment like to a small child only Elizabeth is 25 years of age and the punishment has also extended to me like a slap on the wrist.

The furtherst thing right now on the minds of these “professionals” are the patients stuck on the boring wards with nothing to do.   There was no flags or evidence of any celebration on the hospital site.  They could have done things nice for the patients – there is money to be spent on printing literature and so forth so why could they not arrange a little street party on the site of the Royal Bethlem Hospital?

Why deprive Elizabeth of going to a street party with me just up the road.   THIS IS CRUEL ABUSE. 

I do not know whether any earlier celebrations had taken place but IT IS JUBILEE WEEKEND AND WITH A TITLE LIKE ROYAL BETHLEM I AM APALLED THAT THIS HOSPITAL IS NOT DOING ANYTHING NICE FOR THE PATIENTS AND THE HIGHLY PAID EXPERTS ARE ENJOYING THEIR WEEKEND WITH THEIR FAMILIES WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT ABOUT THE PATIENTS LEFT WITH NOTHING.

Getting back to yesterday my first reaction was one of extreme upset as it takes me a while to get over there and I am devoted to Elizabeth – I had no idea how awful this place was and thought it was a leading hospital that would help give her a proper drug free assessment.   This has not been done properly in accordance with the leading professors written promise. 

No assessment can possibly be done accurately therefore in the circumstances and no doubt the Consultant Psychiatrist will back up the previous team and say YES THE LABEL FITS.  HOWEVER WHAT ABOUT THE OTHER EXPERT’S OPINION – IT IS LIKE THE BULK OF THE TEAM STICKING TOGETHER TO DEFEND ONE ANOTHER AND ANOTHER EXPERT HIGHLY QUALIFIED DISAGREES.    ANYWAY I DISAGREE WITH THEM.   I AM JUST A MOTHER BUT HAVE SOUGHT EXPERT PROFESSIONAL ADVICE OUTSIDE OF THIS APALLING SYSTEM AND HAVE LEARNT THE AWFUL TRUTH – I HAVE INTERVIEWS OF LAUGHING PSYCHIATRISTS INCLUDING ONE FROM THE MAUDSLEY JOKING ABOUT IT TAKING 2 MINUTES TO COME UP WITH A DIAGNOSIS.  YOU SIMPLY CANNOT JUST COME UP WITH A DIAGNOSIS BY OBSERVATION.  THERE NEEDS TO BE PROPER SCIENTIFIC TESTS AND THERE ARE NONE WHATSOEVER.  

IT IS THE DRUGS THAT MAKE SOMEONE PSYCHOTIC.  DR TRACY GIVES THE REASON FOR THIS BASED UPON RESEARCH BY EXPERTS.   THIS RESEARCH IS BEING IGNORED BY PROFESSIONALS AND MOST OF THESE PROFESSIONALS DO NOT WANT TO READ THE FULL FACTS AND THEY JUST CARRY ON DISHING OUT THE DRUGS LIKE SWEETS AGAINST A PATIENT’S WISHES BECAUSE YOU SIMPLY CANNOT JUST COME OFF THEM.  YOU NEED JPROFESSIONAL HELP TODO THIS AND ELIZABETH IS IN THE RIGHT PLACE BUT THEY DO NOT WANT TO HELP AND I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW THAT ONE DAY GOD FORBID IF ELIZABETH IS STILL STUCK IN THIS CRUEL SYSTEM AND DRUGGED UP TO HER NECK ON CHEMICALS THAT THE TEAM ARE RESPONSIBLE BECAUSE THEY HAVE REFUSED TO LISTEN.

Dr David Healy documents a riveting and terrifying story that affects us all.

PHARMACEUTICAL COMPANIES HAVE HIJACKED HEALTHCARE IN AMERICA AND THE RESULTS ARE LIFE THREATENING.

THE FDA ARE APPROVING DRUGS THAT ARE HIGHLY DANGEROUS AND THEY HAVE NOT RESPONDED TO MY LETTER.

THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST AND PHARMACIST AT THE ROYAL BETHLEM HOSPITAL HAVE IGNORED ALL THE FORMS I HAVE SENT THEM TO SAY THEY ARE HAPPY WITH THE SAFETY OF THESE DRUGS.   IT IS OBVIOUS THAT THEY ARE UNSURE OTHERWISE THEY WOULD NOT HESITATE TO SIGN AND THIS SAYS IT ALL.

IT IS OK TO DISH OUT HARMFUL DRUGS LIKE THEY DO UNDER THE NHS CARE FOR MENTAL HEALTH PATIENTS BUT THEY ARE NOT TAKING INTO CONSIDERATION LONG TERM HEALTH AND SERIOUS PROBLEMS SUCH AS DIABETES, LUNG, KIDNEY, HEART ETC ETC.   THEY JUST CARRY ON ABUSING PATIENTS WITH THESE POWERFUL MIND ALTERING LSD EFFECT DRUGS AND ARE TOO LAZY TO READ THE FULL FACTS AND RESEARCH.

FOR INSTANCE THE PSYCHIATRIST IN CHARGE OF MY DAUGHTERS CARE REFUSED TO TAKE AN INTEREST IN ALL THE LITERATURE I BROUGHT UP AND CDS ETC FROM DR ANN BLAKE TRACY AND I HAVE JUST DROPPED IN A BOOK BY DR CANDACE PERT CALLED MOLECULES OF EMOTION.  SHE IS ONE OF THE CREATORS OF THESE DRUGS AND NEXT I WANT TO PURCHASE THE BOOK CALLED PHARMAGEDDON BY PROFESSOR HEALY.   THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST SAID WORDS TO THE EFFECT OF HE HAD ENOUGH READING TO DO AND WAS VERY DISMISSIVE BUT AT THE SAME TIME HE SAID HE WAS LISTENING.   IF HE WAS LISTENING THEN WHY ON EARTH DOES HE NOT COMMUNICATE.  INSTEAD HE HAS IMPOSED SANCTIONS AND PUNISHMENT AGAINST ME BY NOT ALLOWING MY DAUGHTER TO COME OUT WITH ME ON JUBILLEE WEEKEND TO PARTIES AND CELEBRATIONS. 

It is Jubillee weekend, a time for celebration in the UK and I was looking out street parties and things to take Elizabeth to as I only get to see her for a short while on Saturday.

Anyway I turned up at the ward to be told by staff they had been given instructions by the Consultant Psychiatrist that it would NOT be allowed for me to take her out unless someone escorted us.    This is despite the fact that Elizabeth is not in the slightest bit volatile or making threats to anyone.  I FEEL THIS IS PURELY TO GET BACK AT ME, AS THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST WHO SMILES THROUGH MEETINGS WOULD LIKE TO DESTROY THINGS BETWEEN THE TWO OF US.   THIS SORT OF THING GOES ON UNDER THE BRITISH MENTAL HEALTH SYSTEM RUN BY THE NHS. THERE IS TOO MUCH POWER AWARDED TO DOCTORS LIKE THIS AND SOCIAL WORKERS WHO THINK THEY ARE ABOVE THE LAW.  THE LAW SHOULD BE MUCH FAIRER TO STOP THE ABUSE THAT IS GOING ON. 

Please do not get me wrong and mistake the fact that I hate all of the NHS.  There are some very good professional nurses and even doctors on the surgical wards but under the mental health, there is much abuse going on.  I have lost count of how many times I have heard patients complaining about their rights not being listened to.  JUST BY PUNISHING ME LIKE THIS IS ALSO HURTING ELIZABETH BECAUSE NOONE COULD ACCOMPANY US OUT AS THEY WERE SHORT STAFFED AND ON A VERY NICE DAY AND A WEEKEND FULL OF CELEBRATIONS OVER HERE IN THE UK ELIZABETH WAS LEFT TO BE COUPED UP ON THE WARD NOT EVEN GETTING ANY FRESH AIR.   I DO NOT THINK SHE WENT OUT YESTERDAY EITHER.   WE USED TO GO OUT SHOPPING AND TO THE CINEMA  WHAT CRUEL ABUSE IN A SO CALLED DEMOCRATIC AND CIVILISED COUNTRY.   WHAT IS THE POINT OF PUNISHING A HELPLESS VULNERABLE PERSON IN THIS WAY.    I WENT OUT AND GOT ELIZABETH SOME SHOPPING AND LOST COUNT HOW MANY TIMES SHE RANG ASKING IF I WAS ON MY WAY BACK.   IT IS REALLY HORRIBLE WHAT IS GOING ON.

THE OTHER PERSON WHO IS BELIEVE ALSO HAS GOT IT IN FOR ME IS THE SOCIAL WORKER –  THIS WOMAN LIKE THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST HAS SMUGLY SMILED THROUGH MEETINGS.  I FIND THIS BEHAVIOUR MOST UNPROFESSIONAL AND I ASKED FOR A REPLACEMENT, SOMEONE WHO TOOK M ATTERS SERIOUSLY NOT AS ONE BIG JOKE AND I WAS ALSO  ALARMED AND CONCERNED THAT A SOCIAL WORKER SHOULD TAKE IT UPON HERSELF TO TRY AND PERSUADE MY DAUGHTER TO TAKE CLOZAPINE.   WHAT ON EARTH IS SO GOOD ABOUT THIS DRUG!!!!  I KNOW OF SEVERAL PEOPLE WHO HAVE SUFFERED HEART PROBLEMS AND IT CARRIES WITH IT 3 BLACK BOX WARNINGS THAT IT SHOULD NOT BE GIVEN TO ANYONE WITH A HISTORY OF HEART PROBLEMS.    HOWEVER, THEY ARE ALL EXTREMELY DANGEROUS DRUGS AND GIVEN TO SOMEONE WHO IN THE FIRST INSTANCE WAS THE VICTIM OF CRIME –  NEEDED COUNSELLING BUT INSTEAD WAS PUSHED BY THESE SO CALLED PROFESSIONALS ON ALL THOSE DRUGS ON MY LEAFLET WHICH AMOUNT TO 11 AND STILL THEY CONTINUE WITH THIS POISONING OF MY DAUGHTER WHO HAS SEVERAL DIAGNOSES.    THE ONLY WAY TO REALLY FIND OUT IS TO OPEN SOMEONE’S HEAD AND THERE IS NO SUCH SURGERY – GOD FORBID.   IT IS ALL BASED ON TRIAL AND ERROR – GUESSWORK AND THIS HAS BEEN ADMITTED TO ME AT LOCAL LEVEL AND THE DRUGS ARE EXPERIMENTED ON THAT PERSON.   SOME WORK TO BEGIN WITH BUT THEN WHEN THEY WEAR OFF THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST HAS TO LOOK FOR ANOTHER DRUG – THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED TO ELIZABETH ON SEROQUEL – SHE WAS SUFFERING FROM A SERIOUS CONDITION CALLED AKATHISIA – A DIRECT RESULT OF THE DRUG ITSELF.  THE DRUGS ACT LIKE LSD AND CAUSE HALLUCINATIONS.  IT IS EASY TO JUST PUSH DRUGS ON POOR HELPLESS VULNERABLE PATIENTS AND THEN THEY PUT PRESSURE ON THEM BEHIND THE CLOSED DOORS OF THE WARDS.  ONCE UNDER THEIR CONTROL, IT ONLY TAKES FOR THAT PATIENT TO LASH OUT OR SHOW ANY SIGNS OF AGGRESSION AND THEN THEY ARE IN A TRAPPED SITUATION WORSE THAN ANY PRISON WHERE ALL YOUR RIGHTS ARE STRIPPED AWAY FROM YOU.

If you dare to challenge the team then the sanctions apply to you as well like today.    It is absolutely cruel.  While the likes of these professionals do not show their faces on the wards and only visit for a short while it is the families that suffer the impact as they have to listen to the person who is in distress and then families are torn apart by teams who side with a patient or misinterpret what is going on .  Well maybe it is a good thing if a member of staff has to accompany me out.  Then they can report back that I am not some sort of criminal out to do harm to my daughter.   Most of the distress I have witnessed is my daughter is upset at the team themselves for not listening.   At the end of the day I hae stuck up for her like any mother would and this has not made me at all popular with any of the team.  The nurses themselves on the whole I have nothing against but I want things to come back on the people who are harming my daughter and who have neglected her so badly.   I am in particular bitter towards her social worker who I begged to do something to help.   Now they are wasting  over £800 a week on an empty flat.  Surely they do not intend putting her back there because I will surely name them if that is the case.    Something bad happened under that scheme which I said all along was unsuitable.

A Section 3 is for 6 months and I was absolutely bombarded with threatening calls and harrassed left right and centre whilst trying to get on with my work.  They were so desperate to replace me as nearest relative and this was brought about by the person named on the court papers – her social worker and then the team at the Royal Bethlem got involved.   Elizabeth has a right to know what is going on and has blamed me for “putting her in prison”   Unfortunately this “prison” was the only thing on offer as everything else at local level had failed and in particular the scheme and what happened under this scheme that is supposed to  have 24 hr supervision.    If that jsocial worker had tried at least to find somewhere else things may have been better for Elizabeth but she DID NOTHING and I asked for a replacement and instead of a replacement they appointed yet another social worker.    This must all have cost a lot of money.

During the week I visited the homeless –  most of them openly admitted to having suffered from mental illness and all spoke of extreme abuse they have suffered under the system run by the NHS. 

On Friday I had a call from the CQC who are supposed to investigate and to be fair they did show some interest when I told them the full story.   If someone is covered with bruises all  over their face as a relative it is not good enough to be told “I am happy with that” from the lead nurse.     Now they do not want me to have sight of the file – it is obvious they have things to hide.

Once a week I get a phone call and this TELLS ME NOTHING.   If only this Consultant Psychiatrist knew how to communicate himself and pick up the phone for two seconds then there would not be all these problems but he is the one who has imposed the cruel punishment towards me and at the same time he is punishing my daughter.   

There should be greater powers to investigate what is going on under closed doors in a secretive environment such as mental health – this is where the abuse goes on as noone visits hardly and when an investigation team such as the CQC arrive, probably staff are well prepared for them but they have not seen the things I HAVE SEEN or listened to the patients themselves.   

THE WHOLE SYSTEM NEEDS LOOKING AT –  THERE SEEMS TO BE TWO DIFFERENT LEVELS OF SECTION 3 BECAUSE AT LOCAL LEVEL PATIENTS ARE ALLOWED TO ROAM FREELY UNSUPERVISED AND IT IS ALL DOWN TO THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS.     AT THE MAUDSLEY HUMAN RIGHTS ARE NOT CONSIDERED EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVE AN ORGANISATION CALLED RETHINK – THEY SHOUJLD BE PRESENT AT ALL MEETINGS BUT I NOTE THEY ARE VERY CLOSELY ASSOCIATED WITH THE HOSPITAL AND PROBABLY GET FUNDING AT GOVERNMENT LEVEL –  THIS MAKES ME WONDER!   HOW OFTEN DO RETHINK ATTEND THE MEETINGS THAT CAN BE SO DAUNTING TO SOMEONE LIKE MY DAUGHTER.  THERE WERE AT LEAST 8 PEOPLE WHEN I CAME TO THE LAST ONE. 

THE POINT IS JUST BECAUSE THEY DO NOT LIKE YOU AS A MOTHER IT IS VERY VERY CRUEL TO PREVENT SOMEONE WHO IS DRUGGED UP TO THEIR NECK ON HARMFUL CHEMICALS AGAINST THEIR WISHES NOT BE ALLOWED TO EITHER GO TO CHURCH OR TO A JUBILEE PARTY WITH HER MOTHER WHEN NO STAFF WERE AVAILABLE.

I TOOK THE OPPORTUNITY TO CALL AND SEE THE LOCAL CHURCHES TO TELL THEM WHAT WAS GOING ON.

WHEN I WAS FIRST TOLD THIS NEWS I COULD NOT GO OUT ANY MORE ALONE WIHT MY DAUGHTER AND HAD TO BE ESCORTED LIKE A CRIMINAL I FELT LIKE MY LIFE WAS NOT WORTH LIVING.  I AM NOT ONE TO THINK ALONG THESE LINES AT ALL BUT THAT IS WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO ME AND I AM BITTER TOWARDS THIS AWFUL CARE WE HAVE IN PLACE IN A SO CALLED CIVILISED COUNTRY –    THE SECTION WAS PUT IN PLACE IN THE FIRST INSTANCE BECAUSE ELIZABETH WAS TAKEN OFF A LARGE AMOUNT OF MEDICAITON AND THIS WAS MIXED WITH ANOTHER WHICH MADE HER UNSTABLE AND THERE WAS AN INCIDENT ON THE WARD.    THE PUNISHMENT SHOULD HAVE BEEN DISH OUT TO THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST FOR NOT DOING THINGS PROPERLY – INSTEAD OF REDUCING SLOWLY AND GRADUALLY HE JUST MIXED TWO TOGTETHER WHICH IS VERY VERY DANGEROUS INDEED.   IN THE COURT PAPERS THEY ARE THREATENING TO PUT HER ON CLOZAPINE AND I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT THIS IS AGAINST HER HUMAN RIGHTS.

AS FOR HER SAFETY WHICH IS THE THING THEY WILL ARGUE ABOUT – THEY COULD SAY THEY DO NOT FEEL SHE IS SAFE WITH HER OWN MOTHER –   THERE ARE NO SECURITY TESTS I HAVE NOT GONE THROUGH –  I HAVE THREE SECURITY LICENCES WHICH INVOLVE HEALTH AND SAFETY AND HAD TO GIVE UP MY POLICE TRAINING BECAUSE OF ALL OF THIS.  I HAVE HAD THOROUGH SECURITY CHECKS AND I THINK IT IS BECAUSE THEY ARE WORRIED FOR THEMSELVES.   IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE THE WHOLE SYSTEM COLLAPSES AND CHANGES WILL HAVE TO BE MADE AND I CANNOT WAIT FOR THAT DAY AS CARE SHOULD NOT BE ALL ABOUT DRUG PUSHING – THAT IS NOT THE ANSWER AT ALL ESPECIALLY FOR SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN ABUSED.

IT IS ALSO WRONG TO ASSUME THAT IT IS ALWAYS DOWN TO THE HOME AND FAMILY BUT THAT IS THE ASSUMPTION AND EASIER TO DEAL WITH – HOME FAMILY AND ENVIRONMENT WHEN IN FACT IT IS THE DRUGS THEMSELVES.  THE DRUGS MAKE SOMEONE VIOLENT AND CONCEAL THE TRUE FEELINGS AND DO NOT DEAL WITH THE SOURCE OF THE PROBLEM.  THE ANGER COMES WITH NOT BEING LISTENED TO AND BEING TRAPPED.   TRAPPED IN AN EVIL SYSTEM THAT NEEDS CRUSHING TO PIECES AND STARTING FROM SCRATCH.

ALL I CAN HOPE FOR IS THAT ELIZABETH IS MOVED BUT IT WILL PROBABLY NOT BE TO THE HOME AREA – THAT IS WONDERFUL!  I WOULD LIKE HER TO  MAKE A FRESH START.   COMING HOME WOULD NOT REALLY BE THE ANSWER BECAUSE  ANYONE ON THESE MEDICATIONS CAN BECOME UNSTABLE –  I DO NOT BELIEVE THE DIAGNOSES AND FEEL SHE HAS BEEN MISDIANOSED AND TREATED IN THE MOST APALLING MANNER.

HOWEVER I AM NOT ALONE AND SOMETHING NEEDS TO BE DONE THAT IS FOR SURE.

I CAN ONLY PRAY TO GOD THAT SHE IS MOVED AS SOON AS POSSIBLE AWAY FROM THAT AWFUL PLACE.

THE OTHER THING IS THAT I NOW HAVE PROFESSOR HEALY ADDED ON FB AND HE WRITES SOME VERY INTERESTING FACTS WHICH I SHALL COVER IN MY NEXT BLOG.  

It is disgusting first and foremost to label someone with a serious condition when there are no scientific tests available to prove it.   Mental illness can be caused by trauma, a breakdown which can take months to recover from but does not always need the drugs as I have seen someone in the family get better without.

Anyway I have been harrassed and pressurised by the local team and that of the Maudsley as they want to replace me as being closest relative with the father of Elizabeth.  Apparently they go by age and I happen to be the eldest but if they replaced me they would never be challenged and I can continue to keep an eye on what is going on so naturally it would be easier for the team if I was not around. 

I do not want to be replaced as I am the main visitor and felt pressured into saying “yes” to Section 3 even though I am not in favour.  Why a Section 3 when the ward itself is like a prison and you cannot just walk out the door.  However, this court hearing was meant to be today but I have told the Honourable Judge everything and complained of harrassment and threats.  I slated social services who have done nothing.  I slated the doctor for his narrow minded behaviour and thinking these drugs are best when in fact they are causing the psychosis.  Constantly I referred to the book of Dr Ann Blake Tracy, Prozac Panacea Pandora .  I told the Hon Judge the drugs acted like LSD, were highly dangerous and could lead to long term health problems.

Anyway the court Hearing has now been cancelled and the team will have to put with me as the nearest relative.  This could have led to me being banned from visiting but that is not now going ahead and I had just one day and this was too short notice to find solicitors to back me. 

However Elizabeth’s rights are to be defended if she wants to come off the Section 3.  That is probably why they are only allowing me escorted leave right now and there was noone to escort me out with her even outside.  This is surely an infringement of human rights to keep someone locked up like this and not allowed out in the sunshine.  It is apalling abuse.

What a day I have had having to frantically keep the Judge informed and challenge the loss of my role as nearest relative.  I have a busy job and these phone calls were driving me mad.

 It would be cheaper if my daughter took legal proceedings herself – she would get this for nothing whereas I would have to pay dearly. So, if she is distressed and unhappy then I will make sure this happens.

 I AM AFRAID THE VIDEO I TOOK OF FLUFFY WATCHING FOOTBALL AND TRYING TO JOIN IN IS APALLING AND I NEARLY DROPPED THE CAMERA AT ONE TIME.  I MAY STILL POST IT ON YOU TUBE AND THIS WILL PROBABLY GAIN VOTES OF SYMPATHY FOR THE WORST FILM.

Anyway I thought it would be beneficial for Elizabeth to have  a pet to enjoy on any visits home and so my younger daughter went in search and came home with “a bargain!”  He used to live in a flat and not one on ground floor level and was six months old when we got him and very timid but now he is “bold as brass”.  My younger daughter said that at £50 we had a bargain as he came with a huge contraption like a climbing frame which he loves I must say.  She said this would cost a lot of money to buy in the shops.  However we had him micro chipped and we had to have the various injections and there was one occasion  he was unwell that required a visit to the vets but now he is extremely settled and very much at home and we have all grown so attached to him.  I have just dropped some pictures of him to Elizabeth and it is sad she does not have him with her right now although they do have dogs – dogs that sniff for drugs.  Who is the culprits responsible for the pushing of these drugs – look no further than the staff of the NHS in particular the psychiatrists.       It is laughable seeing that picture on the door.   Just imagine the outcry if I was to turn up with Fluffy on the ward with my newly acquired lead.  I have a good mind to do this one day.    Anyway as I have said we have all grown attached to him and you can imagine how devastated I was when he went missing recently.   We put reward posters all up the road and eventually a young girl brought him back.  How many more times is he going to go missing!   I was worried at the time as I had not arranged to put in a cat door and so how on earth was he going to get back in again.  Anyway he was out all night long and I could not sleep and I had to sleep downstairs on the settee with the door open just in case but no sign.  After a sleepless night I had to go to work and could barely concentrate because of my worry for him.

I will most probably let him out again but will choose a time when there is someone at home and around rather than out at work all day.

Fluffy has calmed Elizabeth at times when she is not feeling too good.  Her mood changes in a flash when she sees him.   SURELY THIS IS MORE BENEFICIAL THAN ALL THE DRUGS IN THE WORLD.  THIS SORT OF THING THE NHS SHOULD PROVIDE ON EVERY ACUTE WARD LIKE CAMBIAN FOUR STAR WARDS.

These 2 organisations are a waste of time complaining to because they have no powers to intervene.

At the end of the day I have taken my complaints to them on more than one occasion and one of them (I cannot remember which one) said the reason for their delay in replying is that they are inundated with complaints! – that says it all the system is NOT WORKING.

I am writing a second blog in one evening because I have just noticed a final response from the Local Government Ombudsman – a three page report that is NOT WORTH THE PAPER IT IS WRITTEN ON.  

The first page is full of explanations about roles and powers and how they must consider whether the Council acted reasonably and in accordance with the law.

They give a brief outline – 2 paras on background and then how they consider this complaint in just one sentence..

The CPA is not worth the time and effort because these meetings involving the team and patient are very distressing – often without any advocate present as there should be, a meeting will go ahead and you just have the patient and the team.    Elizabeth has said she dreads every Friday as this is the day they have regular meeting with the team and I cannot get along to them for the most part as I work full time but even when I have attended it has been a waste of time as the doctor does not listen.  It is cruel to put a patient into such a position of having to face sometimes 8 or 9 people as there was when I attended on one occasion.    This is not a fair system at all and someone weak and vulnerable, already chemically brainwashed with mind altering drugs is weakened into submission by a team that fire questions and feel they have no choice but to go along with something against their wishes.  This is what Elizabeth has told me and they all reckon she has mental capacity then why on earth would the doctor in the previous team not sign a form stating that she had mental capacity as that is what they are saying.   That means if she hurt someone or did something bad she could end up in court and not have the team’s backing – they will back her when it suits.  It is wrong that people on these prescribed drugs that cause psychosis are put in a prison as now I understand having read the book of Dr Ann Blake Tracy jsut how these drugs affect the serotonin levels and I can associate with that as I have witnessed at first hand the change in behaviour since being on these awful chemicals that should be banned.

Anyway the Local Government Ombudsman go on to list how the Council has responded but I am not satisfied with the Council’s response at all – they appointed someone from a disability group to ascertain what she wanted over a period of months.   I then booked a leading hynotherapist which by the way is on offer under the NHS in some areas.   This wonderful care actually worked and would surely be cheaper than the drugs.  I could not believe the transformation in Elizabeth and you could talk normally to her.   I have never seen her look so content and in her own words “it was like floating on air, Mum”.    Well I am in favour of anything that benefits my daughter having seen her in such a distressed state of mind.  This caused uproar in the team when I booked this appointment but I thought enough time had been wasted and I wanted the Council to get on and provide things not years down the line but immediately.  They were paying to employ someone for this purpose and it cost me hundreds of pounds but I could have got the answer in just one hour.  This treatment would have been more cost effective and then this guy from the Disability group could have been involved with my daughter as a mentor helping her to a little voluntary job or do something positive.

They like to play on the fact I could not get time off work on one occasion and didnot meet with the team.  The council’s decision was that the care was not lacking but what do you all think –  if someone is admitted 8 times in a short space of time into hospital would you think that the care is satisfactory and that person had been placed correctly then why on earth was she ignored when she was desperate to get out of that home where she was very unhappy and something happened to her.  I also got banned from visiting which caused more distress to my daughter and she had to come down in her night clothes and sit in a freezing care and this was around the time I appointed in desperation an Orthomolecular Psychiatrist and I have never seen my daughter look so happy when I appointed the new specialist and took her to the Bio Lab –  this of course is NOT AVAILABLE ON THE NHS AND THIS IS DISGUSTING AS THE NHS CARE SHOULD NOT BE ALL ABOUT DRUG PUSHING AGAINST A PATIENT’S WISHES AND THERE ARE BETTER THINGS ON OFFER LIKE I DISCOVERED.

IN FACT THE REPORT MISSES OUT HUGE CHUNKS OF MY COMPLAINT BECAUSE THEY HAVE NO ANSWERS TO IT.    WHAT THEY DO IS DRAG THINGS OUT, DO NOT LISTEN TO THE FAMILIES AND DO NOT PUT IN PLACE THE FUNDING FOR IDEAS ETC ALL THEY DO IS DISCUSS THEM – WHAT A WASTE OF TIME AND NOW THEY ARE HAVING TO PAY DEARLY AS THE PLACEMENT HAS BEEN WRONG AND IT IS COSTING A LOT OF MONEY FOR AN EMPTY FLAT SHE WILL NOT BE COMING BACK TO.   AT LEAST THE ROYAL BETHLEM DO NOT IGNORE HER COMMENTS LIKE THEY DO AT LOCAL LEVEL.  8 TIMES ADMISSION MUST TELL YOU SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH THE PLACEMENT.   8 TIMES OR MORE NOT WANTING TO LEAVE THE FAMILY HOME TO GO BACK BUT IT IS TOO RISKY BECAUSE OF THE FACT THESE DRUGS MAKE SOMEONE UNSTABLE AS THEY AFFECT THE SEROTONIN LEVELS AS DR TRACY QUITE RIGHTLY SAYS.  THEY CAUSE THE PSYCHOSIS AND THAT CAN LEAD TO SOME BAD SITUATIONS AT HOME.  

THE RESULT FROM THE OMBUDSMAN WS TO SAY “i RECOGNISE THE COMPLAINANT IS CONCERNED ABOUT HER DAUGHTER.  HOWEVER I AM SATISFIED THAT WITHIN ITS LIMIT DIRECT ROLE THE COUNCIL HAS RESPONDED TO HER CONCERNS AND SOUGHT TO EXPLAIN THE POSITION TO HER.  THE COMPLAINANT HAS CONTINUING CONCERNS ARISING OUT OF HER DAUGHTER’S CURRENT SITUATION BUT THESE ARE MATTERS SHE SHOULD PURSUE WITH THE HEALTH AUTHORITIES.”    AND THIS I AM DOING AS WELL.  THEY ARE BOTH TO BLAME – BOTH SOCIAL SERVICES AND THE HEALTH SERVICE.

IT IS NOT A SOCIALWORKER’S JOB TO PUSH DRUGS OR TRY TO PERSUADE SOMEONE TO TAKE CLOZAPINE.   IT IS A SOCIAL WORKERS JOB TO LISTEN AND NOT PLAY DOWN RISKS LIKE THEY DO NOT EXIST BUT LISTEN OR IF NOT LISTEN LOOK AND OBSERVE THE FACTS BEFORE YOU INSTEAD OF COMING TO THE SAME CONCLUSIONS AND SITTING BACK AND DOING NOTHING.

SO THIS IS THE REASON THE INVESTIGATOR DECIDED TO SHUT DOWN THE CASE AND YET NOTHING HAS BEEN RESOLVED.  SO MUCH FOR THE COMPLAINTS PROCEDURES! 

Did not realise that Elizabeth was seeing other family members on Sunday so chose instead to look around a wonderful local shopping centre and pick up my book which I have just ordered called “Molecules of Emotion” by Dr Candace Pert.   Dr Candace Pert is one of the creators of these harmful drugs and an outspoken critic featured in Dr Ann Blake Tracy’s informative book called Prozac Panacea and Pandora.  I have of course taken these books on the ward as I feel the team should not dismiss such evidence as to how harmful the drugs are.

I telephoned Elizabeth later as I was still in the area and asked if she wanted me to call in and drop some money in for her as she had requested me to do the previous day.   Straight away I got to hear that Elizabeth was not herself and in a bad way.   I am sure the doctor is messing around with her medication in some way as she was quite unstable and so I decided not to stay for very long as this could antagonise the situation. 

I dropped the money in and sat down for a few minutes with her and she showed me the new clothes she bought whilst out earlier.  You could not speak to her or have a conversation with her at all, she was very hyper and jumpy in her behaviour.  I had brought her a few bits and pieces and left shortly after.

Of course when someone is ill like that and drugged up to their neck on LSD-like tablets that actually cause the psychosis themselves namely Seroquel and Olanzapine, you have to expect someone is not going to be at all well.   The Royal Bethlem are continuing to do what they did at local level and at times she sounded a bit suicidal and of course anger is vented at you for being that nearest relative who “put her in the Maudsley”.  I thought this was a leading hospital that took a different approach but have been proven wrong.   Elizabeth is worried she will be kept in forever but I think that moneywise, I do not think that will be an option but pray she will not return to the dreadful local area where I live where the mental health care is apalling. It must be costing them a fortune at local level and this is probably the reason why they wish to replace me as the closest relative thinking about it. There are familiy members that live in another area outside of London and I am thinking that if transferred there, the funding would come under that particular area.  There is an assessment coming up at local level but every time I have been to such meeting I have come away so upset as you are up against so much and a team that stick together and do not wish to listen to you and it is no wonder they smugly smile.  At least four people have done this so far attached to various teams which is highly unprofessional in my opinion. 

Currently on a section 2 they wish to extend it to Section 3 (up to 6 months) and if they are as I think they are playing about with the medication and altering things it causes a person to suffer form psychosis I would not have a chance to dispute this as only a short while ago she was fine in her behaviour and talking in a decent manner and now look – just before this assessment she is completely off her head.  The teams like to say someone like my daughter knows what she is doing but there are many times and I have so many witnesses she is not able to control and in a dream like state.   She mentioned she suffers from nightmares during the day – a sign of the LSD like drugs.   Psychosis is not a condition just brought on by a so called diagnosis but as a direct result of the harmful LSD like drugs they give. She never had anything like this before.  I am so sorry now for Elizabeth and there is not a day that does not go by when I do not think of her no matter how hard I try to switch my mind to other things.  I feel so helpless and feel like my life has been destroyed to and her life rests in God’s hands.  Nothing can reassure me as to the safety of these drugs as I personally am in touch with patients and have friends who have been on them who now suffer long term serious health problems.  Of course this is something I do not want for Elizabeth.

This is my daughter and I am thinking about Michael Jackson and what happened to him and thinking that I do not want to lose my daughter and do not believe in these diagnoses at all for which she has 4.  I saw the decline in her when she took herself off Cipralix in one go and became unrecognisable.

I believe that a trauma can bring about a breakdown which time could heal like it did with someone else in my family over a period of 5 months who refused every scrap of medication.  I believe that counselling and alternative things like the oils, oxygen that Dr Tracy recommends, meditation and exercise – most importantly correct diet and peaceful environment are so important to get better.  Elizabeth is not alone and there are so very many in the same situation and stuck in the system – the forgotten people, people that the Government does not care about at all.  Even the press is afraid to print stories and I have approached them several times.  The complaints system is biaised and unfair and so is the legal profession – all of this means that this abuse is allowed to continue and people are dying as a result of these awful drugs that should be banned. 

This hospital has better facilities than at local level and I was pleased to hear today that she had been given the opportunity to work in their on-site shop but I had never doubted her capabilities and she is very artistic.  On the local ward on a previous occasion I went over their heads to book a floristry course and you should have seen the wonderful things she made there – even the staff wanted to buy the displays and the psychiatrist had to admit HE WAS WRONG.  It is not often someone in the profession admits they are wrong and I respect anyone who is brave enough to admit it or to stand up for what they think is right when the vast majority are only concerned for themselves and their jobs.

There are one or two I respect in the team but I think personally that it is not drugs that are the answer but correct care and diet/nutritian and counselling play an important part, not to mention animals.  The care should be improved at local level and there is huge room for improvement at this hospital.  I do not like to see animals caged in but this is RIDICULOUS ABUSE.  YOU SHOULD SEE WHAT THIS PLACE IS LIKE WITH HIGH FENCES AROUND.   IF THE PATIENTS WERE HAPPY THERE THEN THERE WOULD NOT BE THE NEED FOR THESE HIGH PRISON LIKE FENCES AND BESIDES IF THEY ARE VIOLENT AND AGGRESSIVE THEN IT IS THE DOCTORS PLYING THEM WITH DRUGS THAT CAUSE THIS BECAUSE THEY ALTER THE SEROTONIN LEVELS AND HAVING READ DR TRACY’S BOOK ANYONE WOULD SURELY BE CONVINCED THAT THESE DRUGS ARE NO GOOD AND MAKE SOMEONE PREVIOUSLY PLACID VIOLENT AND WHEN THE CREATOR OF THESE DRUGS DR CANDACE PERT WRITE AS TO HOW ALARMED SHE IS WHY DO NOT MORE PROFESSIONALS LISTEN.   THEY ARE IN DENIAL AND DO NOT CARE AS LONG AS THEY HAVE THEIR JOBS AT THE END OF THE DAY.  I COULD NOT HAVE DONE MORE THAN DRAW TO THE ATTENTION THE DANGERS OF THESE DRUGS AND INTEND TO TAKE THE NEXT CARERS GROUP MEETING BY STORM.